getting ready for the sale
Mood:  blue
For the past two day I have gone through almost every thing that we own. I am sad because I don't want to get rid of all of the thing that we have to get rid of just to make ends meet. I have robbed Peter to pay Paul too much. Now Peter is poor too!! Yesterday David and I fought over getting the house done. If we had the money I would pay somebody to finish it. Then again if we had money we would not be in this situation.

lifes up and downs
Mood:  not sure
As my seven month old woke up in his usual good mood this morning I thought to myself oh great another day. I go through my list of things to do today. Dishes, feed and water the dog, water the flowers, laundry, vacuum, and help mow the yard this afternoon. then I will have to find something for dinner.What I do not know because there is no meat in the house and very few other choices I will pro baby fix the last can of ravioli for my husband to eat and not eat again today. like the past few days. It is a long time until pay day. I just hope that there is enough money to buy a few groceries this week. At least I don't have to worry about the kids eating this weekend. They are at their moms. maybe I will see if she will keep them next week too since they are out of school now.I got a disconnect notice on the water today. Will it ever end will we ever get out of debt???????

how close am I to going over
Mood:  down
To day is Friday I feel a little better than I did yesterday, but not much. Yesterday at 6:30 am I was served with papers to appear in court. I am being sued. Then that afternoon my landlord said that he had to have the rent money or he will take back the property. My husband works for a concrete company. He makes good money when he gets to work.I am looking for a job, but there are not many in this area. Then we Will have to find a baby sitter for our seven month old which we cannot afford. Then there is we only have one car and we can not afford another car payment either. Then there is our house we live in a 16ft X 16ft room.we started an addition before the baby was born but it is not done yet. We cannot get any help to finish it and then we also ran out of money. My baby can not even play on the floor because the carpet is indoor/outdoor carpet and it tears up his skin. there just is not enough room for 5 people in here. (My husband has 2 other children who he has custody of) Next weekend is Memorial weekend and we are having a sale. I want to sell everything even the property and rent a small house.Just until I get out of school in about two years. but he wants to stay here. I am at my Witt's end. Before I would just sell off everything and move away but now I don't want to do that, but everyday I find myself contemplating that more and more.